I'm not sure how mindful this muttering will be.. more than likely it'll be far from mindful but I'll just run with it. The last few days have been less than enjoyable on so many fronts. I've been betrayed again.. by members of my "family." I use that term very loosely. My sister in law isn't a welcome member of my family. Unfortunately my brother welcomed her without consulting anyone else and life has been a mess on and off since then. I have to find a way to let her stuff go. She is not the reason I am who I am.... I need to just focus on me and spend a lot less time and energy worrying about why she is the way she is. This will never change. I can only continue to be who I am. I'm going to focus on a solution to this problem and forgive myself for the way I handled some of it.

The solution to this problem will be my brother and i having a very honest conversation about what this is really about. I'm ready to be done with his drama and it's his.. not mine.. so if this is the crap she wants to deal with and he's willing to tolerate it.. then I guess there's nothing I can do. I can continue to successfully live my life and move on. My life has so many great things.. I just have to focus on those..

life goes on..