Here I go again...

So is that choking feeling the feeling of needing to let go? Or is that choking feeling just a reminder of what was and is no longer? Is that chocking feeling just a piece of me wanting to move on faster than I physically am? Is that chocking feeling the very firm reminder that I can do better than this? Is that choking feeling just a little nudge to move to better thoughts, better people, and better focus? Is that choking feeling just my internal self reminding my physical self that there is more to life than what I am looking at for the moment? I think so. I need to let go, move on, and realize there is so much more. I need to open my eyes and see what I already know is there. I need to move forward without even considering looking back. As soon as I look back, even for a moment, I get a choking feeling. So here I go.. forward.. not backward. Moving in the direction I know is right for me and always has been.. realizing that people never really do change but there are people out there that match who you are and where you're headed... remembering to have faith in the little things and the belief will become a reality if I give it a chance... moving on... once and for all.. moving on. There is no reason to turn back. Life is only as amazing as we allow it to be... here we go.. here I go. Full steam ahead.. my destiny is for the making... and there's a white canvas that needs some painting.