Interesting Happenings..

So strangely enough I just read through a few of my older posts.. and ironically, I can remember writing them. As a read my words, I can remember how I felt.. hopeful.. but frustrated.. happy.. but sad.. delightful.. but a little tinge of a regret. That is no more.. sure I have my struggles.. but life is amazingly enough falling into place as I knew it would. That hope... is filling my heart with love and god's grace is guiding me every day. I met my love a little over three months ago. All these years I've been wanting.. wishing.. hoping.. and dreaming for him to come along.. and here he is. So.. lucky for me, all this is coming together. I graduate soon... I have the love of my life in my world... and I couldn't ask for more..

Here we go.

How is it that some people just find their way to your weaknesses. How is it that some people can be utterly ridiculous in their actions and just drive you insane and others can do the very same and you don't think twice. Lately I've been challenged at work and today I got really upset with a co-worker. He is constantly trying to undermine my authority and knows that I don't have as much as he'd like. He claims he "can't do everything." I wasn't asking him to do everything, however I was asking him to do one thing. What is amazing to me is that he can say no, and get a way with it. Who else in the organization can you call and say, by the way can you provide this information to me? No. I don't have time. That's not an acceptable response. I am going to have a conversation with my boss and ask him directly how he would like me to handle certain situations in the future. I understand we all have deadlines, but if I am not made aware of the expectations, I certainly can't meet them.

I am done playing games. This is a professional environment and everyone should be held to the same standard. I don't think that's too much to ask. I also was told by the consultant that he let the VP of HR know that I was brilliant and they'd be crazy to lose me. The VP agreed. It's nice to know that people from afar appreciate what I have to offer the organization. I just wish those sitting beneath my nose felt the same way. I am applying for jobs, cleaning up the one I've got, and getting on with life. Thankfully this isn't all there is for me and this is actually very small stepping stone in the grand scheme of life. I just need to stay focused on the prize.

When all else fails, at least there is hot chocolate and fires in the fireplace.
It's irritating that I let him get to me. I guess sometimes that happens and tomorrow is another day. Another day that I can rise above the insanity and continue to be who I am. If he chooses to be that person, that's fine, but i'll never be that person. I live mylife with integrity and purpose. There are some that choose to live an entirely different life. I just hope it is working for them. All I need to worry about is what is working for me.

I think this year will really mark a year of change. I'm excited to see what is in store for me. I know for sure.. the best is yet to come.