I've been practicing the law of attraction for a year or so. I forget that I should be focusing on the greatness of my life.. start feeling sorry for myself and then do things that make me feel worse. Last night I went on a date with someone I don't want to see, communicated with another individual I don't want to see, and then interacted with another individual that obviously doesn't match who I am as a person. So why does one do this? I guess to fill the void. The void that cannot be filled with random people living random lives that I hope to have eventually turn into being something meaningful.. even when I know there is no chance. I guess the void is that of wanting to love and be loved. The problem is, when I engage in activities that are against my true self, I get further away from that which makes me feel alive and real and valued as a human being. From this day forward, I will honor myself. I will honor myself and remind myself constantly that I am deserving of love. I am deserving of being with someone that is emotionally available to be involved. I am deserving of being someone's everything, rather than someone's something. I am deserving of living the life that I've always wanted to live. I am deserving of life in all it's beauty. I am deserving of seeing life for what it is meant to be, and that is joyous.
All in all, my life is absolutely beautiful.... I have a humble, comfortable place to call home.. and I enjoy it. I am educated and becoming more educated. I am almost done with my master's degree. I meet some amazingly talented people through my friends and school.. and I am loved by many. There's no need to hang on to the past an any regret. There is only a need to move foward. One foot ahead of the other. Life is absolutely what you make of it. There's no time like now. Here.. and now. This is my life... isn't it beautiful?
Sunday, June 28, 2009
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