Trusting..

I am finding it difficult to fully believe that everything will be just as it should be.. soon. The funny thing that I have to remember is everything as it should be now. I am exactly where I need to be now.. there's nothing in this journey of life right now.. except the present. I fall into the trap of looking for tomorrow and I get lost and forget about today. This week has been incredibly trying emotionally and physically. Unfortunately, I didn't get much rest.. and that affects my ability to be tolerant of situations I would normally not even think twice about. So.. I just have to take a deep breath.. take a step back.. and realize that this is the life I have created for myself... and I need to love it. Every last bit of it... that which I do not love.. I need to let go. Sounds easy right? It is... just it's much easier in theory than in practice. I didn't get a chance to do yoga too much this week, the sleep was less than needed, and the food was less that enjoyable.. all week long. Combine all that and yeah I can see why my mood wouldn't be the way it could be... The best thing about this week so far is that I ended up seeing Libby... and spending time with my mom. Those two things make everything feel ok again. So here I am.. letting go.. and letting god. It's a constant reminder that I need to exercise. Music brings me back to where I need to be.. without it I wouldn't be able to get centered and move on again. So.. thankfully I have access to it at almost all times.. if it's not being played on an external device.. I can play it in my head.. I love it.