Confusion and contemplation...

I am to choose my path based on how I feel when I make all choices. This has me wondering what in my life I do that makes me feel perfect. Being aligned with my energy source is the most important piece of me living an abundant and joyous life. What comes to mind is yoga, tai chi, hanin out with Naomi, Jen, my mom.. and the one and only Libby.. she is my angel. I feel so incredibly blessed to have the people in my life that I do. Without them I wouldn't be half of who I am today. I feel as though they remind me who I am and assist me in continuing to be who I am. They see through my worry and fear and remind me that there is a lot of love here for all of us. I need to let go, and let my life lead me downstream. The oars aren't necessary. There is a plan, I've been creating it all of my life. The better I feel, the more I am allowing my life to happen. I didn't come here to get it done, our socieity convinces us that we need to get it done. There is nothing to get done, I need to let go, and let god. Everything is here for me. The drum is beating letting me know that there is love here and I am loved and I am valued. I am here to enjoy the process and the progress in this journey of life is measured by the joy I feel while I"m in the process. I feel that joy when I am outside, when I am near water, when I am helping people. What would I do if I could do things for free? I would create a space for artists to unite and share their passion. I would create a space that would allow art/music shows to come through in a casual way. I would have a dance studio, yoga studio with a quaint coffee shop/cafe on the lower level. The only reason to compare yourself to others is to realize that the rocket of desire that will come forth and the positive emotion that will result by looking at what others have and putting that out there for the universe. I need to start telling the story as I want it to be, not how it always has been. There's so much love here. Life is just a series of great moments... I need to appreciate all of them. There's to be joy at all times. Every day, I need to do what makes me feel the best that I can possibly feel. No matter where I am, I am putting the boat in the water and letting go of the oars. Life began a long time ago, I am going to stop paddling upstream and go with the flow. Doing this I will allow my true self to truly be who I am. There is beauty all around me. I appreciate the fact that I was able to see my smiley beautiful mom today and my wonderful dog. She is always aligned with source appreciating each moment. Life is like a sandbox, and I need to build my castle..and my town... I need to relax and believe in myself. The reason I feeling negative emotion is because it's an indicator that I am not allowing myself to be who I need to be... and who I am. Believe... there is great love here and there is enough for everyone.